Learning To Love You More




Assignment #31
Spend time with a dying person.

Adrienne B.
Seattle, Washington USA



She was a confident and defined woman, but I never knew her as a person beyond her disease. She was dying and I visited her from time to time, I'm talking a couple times a week or at times maybe once a week. I couldn't handle the pain, the process of decay, ripping at the heart of a lovely soul and body and human being. She was my grandma and she was beautiful. She dropped down to 75 pounds, couldn't bath herself, couldn't feed herself, basically needed care to live from day to day. Her sister became her nurse. I can't image taking care of my sibling at such a horrible time, just a decaying period at one's life. I see it inhumane and unfair to have such a great family member suffer when they contributed so much to everyone around me. I'm not selfish, but I wish I could take away her pain and know her as her, as a person who can be themself, who can talk and laugh and not be ridden to a bed and pills. She passed away in the middle of the night over 2 years ago, next to my grandpa. He loved her more than any material item in this world, but no one can imagine the pain our family had to go through at the last few weeks of her life.