Learning To Love You More




Assignment #52
Write the phone call you wish you could have.

Oakland, California USA



X: Hi.
Me: Oh, it's you.
X: Yeah. I know this is uncomfortable so I'll just go right ahead and say it. I'm really sorry for everything hurtful I have done to you. I know you've been going through rough times, and I've really been thinking about the last time we saw each other, and it makes me sad.
Me: I'm sad too. And angry. This is making me uncomfortable. We've never really talked before. But I have to say I'm really surprised that you would call and apologize. You've never apologized for anything you've ever done to me. And rather than being happy, it's making me feel so angry that it has taken you so long to talk to me about your problems and how you manifest your anger and depression on your own family. An apology is not enough for me. I'm sick of trying to forget about the past. I need to see real change before I can even begin to feel comfortable even looking at you or talking to you.
X: I see. What is it that I can do?
Me: For one, you could stop drinking. You're obviously an alcoholic. And you can't control your rage once you get to that level. Your indestructible at that point and no one can reason with you. I don't trust you when you're drinking. It makes me sick.
X: I've been working on that. I don't have that much of a drinking problem. Don't over-react.
Me: That's what you always say. What's it going to take for you to change? I'm not sure if you ever will.