Learning To Love You More




Assignment #52
Write the phone call you wish you could have.

Durham, North Carolina USA



Me: Hello?
Jeff: Hey. What's up?
Me: Nothing, what's up?
Jeff: Nothin.
Me: This is such a pleasant surprise! So how are you what have you been doing?
Jeff: Not much--
Me: I miss you. I really really miss you.
Jeff: I miss you too.
Me: I really don't know what else to do right now but miss you and think about how I want to be with you all of the time.
Jeff: I'm a dick. I'm sorry I'm such a dick.
Me: It's okay. Thank you. I love you.
Jeff: I'm just scared. I don't want to get hurt again.
Me: I know. It'll be okay, I promise. I don't want you to worry about me doing what she did. You know me, I wouldn't do that. I promise you I won't do anything like that ever. I'm yours. (Sings:) Baby, let me love you/ Let me be the one to/ give you everything you want and need.
Jeff: Shut up, motherfucker.
Me: Haha! I know but seriously, I feel like your heart is broken for real, like your heart doesn't work. It's all closed and crusted over and you're proud of it for some reason. And I don't know, but I just feel like living like that can't be good for you. I have to pretend like I don't really care about you so that I can come over and not have you think that I'm always dissapointed in the way things went. But I'll do it because I just want to be around you and share air and warmth and sheets with you. I know you're capable of investing yourself, you just have to let go of that fear and try to think "Love!!!"
Jeff: You're right. I can't keep living like this forever. Maybe it's about time I start thinking in terms of a relationship instead of just random sex. I've got to get my priorities in order.
Me: I think that's a good idea. Can I just request that you keep me in mind? Don't forget about me. I'm here if you want me. Seriously Jeff.
Jeff: Alright, thanks.
Me: Will you come visit? Can you come this weekend?
Jeff: Yeah, I could do that.
Me: Come be with me and stay with me.
Jeff: Okay. I will.
Me: I'm excited! I'm so glad you're coming.
Jeff: I am too. I really do miss you. I'll see you soon.
Me: Call me later in the week so I know when you're coming.
Jeff: Alright.
Me: Kay, I'll talk to you soon.
Jeff: Okay, bitch!
Me: Haha! Okay! Bye, Jeff.
Jeff: Bye.
Me: Bye.