Learning To Love You More




Assignment #52
Write the phone call you wish you could have.

Carly Millis
Westlake, Ohio USA



<###>: Carly? Is that you?
: Sure...who is this? I don't recognize your voice.
<###>: I didn't expect you to. I can't tell you who I am, but I can tell you that one day, we'll meet.
: Um, that's unnerving, to say the least. Why can't you tell me who you are? I see no reason for withholding your identity, especially because we're supposedly going to meet in the future.
<###>: If I tell you who I am, you will come looking for me, and it's too early for that.
: Then why would you call me and tell me all of this? If you're positive about our meeting, I don't see why you should pursue me now, only to tell me to wait.
<###>: I know, and for that I feel badly. However, I needed you to know that I exist. I needed you to know that I truly am out here, and when our paths meet, you'll feel as though you've found everything you've been waiting for. I wanted to give you hope.
: How can I know that "you're truly out there" if I don't even know who you are?! Are you one of those psychos that think they're God? You shouldn't waste your breath, buddy.
<###>: (Laughs) I'm not God. That isn't what I'm getting at.
: Well, you could certainly be a bit clearer about what you DO mean.
<###>: Carly, I wish I could be with you right now and tell you everything. This is incredibly hard for me. It just isn't the right time.
: Look, would you stop beating around the bush? I don't have the strength to decipher what you're trying to say.
<###>: I know your lonelines. I feel the emptiness as much as you do, and I long to hold you and tell you how much I love you. I just...I can't.
: PLEASE STOP! I don't understand! What are you doing?! Are you trying to hurt me?! Are you trying to scare me?!
<###>: Oh Carly, I didn't mean for it to go this way! I'm...I...see, well...Carly, I'm, uh...I'm Love.
: Excuse me?
<###>: Well, okay, see...um...(with fervor) I'm the Love you will one day find, the Love that you've been waiting for your entire life. I am the Love you search for in your dreams and in the faces of people on the street. I am the Love that will keep you warm and help you fly. I want to be with you and to spend every moment of my life with you, but this just isn't the right time. We can't meet right now, we just can't. We still both have so much life to live, and our characters must fully mature! It kills me to talk to you, to hear your voice, and to know that we still have time to wade through.
: I...are you really...how did you find me? How can you know we'll be in love, yet forbid our relationship? This makes no sense!
<###>: You think this is easy for me?! Every single day, I wished for you, for Love. Every day I wanted to hold and be held. Now I've found you, and it hurts even more than I ever thought.
: Just stop, please. This is ridiculous. I don't know who put you up to this, but it isn't funny.
<###>: No, Carly, no one put me up to this! I just...this is real...I don't know what to say to convince you.
: Well, if you're telling the truth, we should just meet and get this over with! Why wait for time to align our paths? You can find me, and we can be together now! I don't understand your need to complicate the situation.
<###>: I know, I know. It makes sense, it does...but this just isn't the right time. Our lives are being molded as we speak, and meeting now would alter everything. We must go on with our plans and dreams alone, so that we don't sacrifice what we truly want because of one another.
: But Love - if that is who you truly are - IS my dream! Not being with you is a greater sacrifice than any I would make because of you!
<###>: I feel the same way, but this is how it must be. I don't completely understand, but the knowledge of your existence fulfills me enough for the moment.
: So you just called to tell me that you're real, that we'll one day find one another, but that we must continue our lives as we planned before we can meet?
<###>: Yes, basically. Look, we WILL meet one day. Our paths WILL cross. We must just go about things as we've always planned. The universe always comes through with what should be.
: (Whispers) I...is this real? Can this really be true?
<###>: Yes, this is real. What we have - what we WILL have - is incredibly real. We must stay strong and follow our dreams. Life is cruel, but not so cruel as to keep us apart forever.
: How will I know when I find you?
<###>: You'll just know.
: (Laughs) That's comforting.
<###>: I should probably get going before we get any more attached. I just wanted you to know that I'm completely real, and that your loneliness will one day end.
: I'm guessing we can't talk every so often.
<###>: I'm afraid not.
: (Sighing) I still don't know what to believe. For whatever reason, I trust your voice. I've known you two minutes, and I trust your voice. I guess that says something. (Laughs) I can't even know your name? You know mine!
<###>: It'll be too tempting for you. Let's just bathe in the knowledge we already have.
: I guess that would make the most sense. Oh goodness, this is otherworldly. I'm going to wake up after we hang up, aren't I?
<###>: (Laughs) Nope. Just...stay strong, okay? This is hard for me as well, but I'm sure it'll make our relationship all the more poignant when we actually do meet.
: Yeah, that's a good point. I guess we'll just have to wait and see, huh?
<###>: Exactly. Oh, I wish I knew how to say everything I want! This is so strange, all of this.
: (Laughs) I believe YOU'RE the one that called me to tell me that you're "everything I've ever wanted."
<###>: Good point. Anyway, I must go now. I guess I'll see you sometime...
: (Quietly) Do you really have to go?
<###>: We'll find each other, I promise we will. Then we'll spend every minute in each others' arms, and we'll never let go, and we'll share everything, and we'll make up for every minute we've had to be separate, and...oh, one day!
: This is certainly going to be wearisome. I guess we just have to make the most of everything we have. Will you...please enjoy every moment of your life...for me...okay?
<###>: Of course! And...and you for me. (Sighs) Well, I guess this is goodbye. I...I love you, Carly.
: I think...I don't know if I can...I just...
<###>: It's alright. You don't have to say it.
: I love you, too.